This is it; all these signs indicating that maybe I've been too nice to some people who don't notice and don't appreciate me enough.  I don't think I expect too much most of the time...or do I?  I know I can't force my standards on other people, but it's various incidents combined and observations over the last while that have made me realize that I am disappointed in these friends.  And maybe I've been influenced by what other people say, since from things that I tell other friends or family, I've been warned about not being overly nice to some friends...But I think they're right...I have to stop being a pushover...Maybe it's time to make some changes and I just have to be more comfortable with saying "no," when it's necessary.  I have to stop over-analyzing everything and just move on and get what needs to be done, done first.

Where do I even begin?  My first entry in 2007, and my first entry in more than 2 months.  I wasn't going to write here anymore, but I got this sudden urge to do so.  First off, I'm gonna miss you lots, Angel!  It was great seeing you back in Vancouver, but I hope that we will see each other again sometime this year.  And Ange, hope you're having lots of fun in HK!

I've been happy to be able to spend time with different friends this holiday season.  I feel like I should slow down after a busy week of going out so much, but I also feel like I should get as much done as possible before school starts again.  Lucky for us first years, school doesn't start until the 8th while the 2nd years have to go back on the 2nd.  This term definitely did not go as well as I would've liked it to, but oh well, it could have been much worse and I can definitely try to improve next term.  As I was telling a friend tonight, "Don't fret the past too much and look towards the future."  That will be my goal for the new year too.  It feels kind of weird to spill so much about myself to someone other than my very good friends from high school.  I guess it's because I'm generally still quite reserved as I've been over the years and it takes a while before I can become so close to people around me.  Well, I hope we can really trust and rely on each other.  So much reflecting on the last day of 2006.  Hopefully 2007 will be even better, and I won't have to remind myself too much not to take certain things so seriously so that I don't get so disappointed when things turn out the way I don't want them to turn out.  Nothing's perfect, and though I wish that whatever I contribute is what I receive, it's not always going to be that way.  I shouldn't always expect so much.  I don't show it most of the time, I don't think, but people who know me well can see that when I am even slightly upset or disappointed.  Rather than becoming upset, I can just accept the situation with a smile and move on.  It's nice to know there are people who understand me well too though.  I don't mean to make myself sound so bitter though; I'm happy with the way most things are right now, and there are many things that I am thankful for, but it's easier to talk about things that worry me and so I will not go through the happy list now.

Another resolution for the new year?  Do better in school.  Find my balance!  I think I sort of found it at the end of last term, but I know next term is going to be even more difficult.  Thanks for all the advice everyone gave me; love you all!